Australia.17.Sometimes self harm seems like it's the only way to control the pain, like it's the only way I can become numb and forget about the craziness of the world, forget about the darkness that has so heavily consumed my life, forget about the past, forget about the sexual abuse and all the hatred shoved upon me, forget about the bullying, forget about the feelings of unworthiness. I know the pain will never go away, I know the memories will never fade, but this is all I know.